Interestingly, in all of my very very early memories, I remember being unable to see things that are in distant; I could only see well if they were close...like my hand or something. I remember this one particular day when I experienced a type of frustrated at my inferior vision field because I just couldn't SEE my environment very clearly. Or...maybe I just had bad eyes.
I am not 100% certain this really IS the "earliest" memory but I recall me trying to act like my father. Every evening, he would return home wearing suit and his giant shoe. I remember finding them one day, attempt to "fit" my feet in there, and try to see myself through a mirror. Of course, I could not walk in it, so I dragged it across the house to the bathroom [where the mirror is]. I am not really sure how I manage that because my vision field was swinging all over the place. I assume it was because I was walking extremely awkwardly, and half crawling. Once I arrived to the bathroom, I tried to look at the mirror, but alas, it is thousand feet away, and so was the switch for the bathroom. I don't know what I was thinking but I began thinking myself as my father. Being awesome and cool [and wearing neat suits!]. I really liked my father and I wanted to be just like him when I grow up.
I am unsure WHY I remember this incident. Probably because I was so happy I got my hands on his shoe [it is gone most of the time during the day after all]
It is difficult for me to say whether "personality or identity the same now as it was then". I can't really define my own personality from snippets of memories. All I can remember is that I was kind of an idiot when I was little. However, I suppose, wanting to be like my father still applies to me as of today.
Oh and lastly, I confirmed this memory with my mother, and she said I was 2 years old, going to 3.
thanks for reading,
-- Edited by 102intro on Sunday 18th of October 2009 06:38:56 PM
I don't know about seeing everything blurry, but I seem to have trouble remember the sequence of events. I would remember one event but then I wouldn't know how I transitioned from one to the next event.
Maybe your memory appears to be blurry because it didn't illicit an intense emotion (like a traumatic incident that may affect you psychologically) and because there is no surprising moment in your memory that may help to define your memory a little better.
My memory at the time I was two years old is clear than yours, but the memory is consisted of a series of scenes. I don't remember my what my thoughts and feelings were at the time and consider a possibility that I could have fabricated some part of it.
jlee3
-- Edited by 102intro on Monday 19th of October 2009 11:15:00 AM
-- Edited by 102intro on Monday 19th of October 2009 11:16:15 AM
My memory is also pretty clear, but there is a huge gap between that memory and my next...
Both involved pretty deep emotions though.. one was a really happy and exciting time.. the other was a very confusing time.. I could feel the people around me were sad and afraid, but I couldn't figure out why
