I was in a train station and a lot of things happened that were really blurred. Eventually I found this guy I had a crush on 5 years ago, and have talked to sporadically since, and he's looking for something so I tell him that I'll help him find it. After hurriedly running around for a few minutes we somehow start to hookup on one of the benches in the station. After a few seconds of surprise I think "Oh ****, I'm cheating on my boyfriend... I can't believe I actually cheated on my boyfriend... Oh man." Inside my head I freak out a little, but I don't stop doing what I'm doing until I wake up.
I feel like our brains have the tendency to take very very small ideas and fleeting thoughts and expand them into detailed dreams. So probably every time you sporadically talk to this guy you probably think, oh yeah I had a crush on him a long time ago. So then in your dream, your brain elaborates on that thought and makes a story of it. So yea, I think dreams just expand your thoughts rather than reveal hidden feelings or anything. So I don't think that you still have secret feelings for this guy or anything as significant as that; your dream just showed you a feeling/memory you had a long time ago and that's all.
I think this may be symbolizing that you're not really ready to settle down completely with your boyfriend. You're thinking about your options, even your crush from five years ago. If he wasn't there you would be exploring your options and testing the waters a bit. Maybe you want to see what's out there but the fear or hurting or leaving your boyfriend is great enough that you'll suppress your emotions. Maybe you're having a battle between what you want to do and what is natural to you and what you feel you should do and is right.
-- Edited by 102intro on Wednesday 2nd of September 2009 12:52:50 AM
