I am on a pirate ship. It is dark and no one else is on a ship. I lay on a table located in the center of the deck. I can feel the ship swaying but perpendicular to the direction that it would normally sway.
So I am going to try and respond to you but I will probably be totally wrong. I think that you might be in a pretty dark place in your life right now. Or you just tend to watch the pirates of the Caribbean movies quite often. So I think that you might be repressing some kind of fear of loneliness? Are you lonely? I hope not.
