The earliest memory I can recall happened during the first day of my pre-school, which made it especially memorable. My parents handed me over to the teacher who ushered me, along with other kids, into a room. The teacher closed the room door but the windows were still open. My parents stood at the windows for a while, watching and waving at me. I started to cry because I wasnt sure what was going on. I felt really lost and trapped. I recall wanting to be with my parents so badly. I continued to cry for hours after they left, despite the attempts of the teacher to cheer me up. All day, I clung at the gate of the door, hoping my mom and dad would come back.
My personality has changed a lot since those pre-school days. I think it is a consequence of growing up. Over the years, I have become more independent and mature. I am also able to cope better with changes in life.
I also remember my first day of pre-school as being my earlier memory. I think that we're both able to still recall it because it was the first time that we were "on our own". However, I was more excited than sad on my first day, and I feel like my personality is the same way now. I am always excited to do new things.
I think it is really interesting that your first memory is centered around the fact that you felt neglected by your parents at school. In some way I feel like our earliest memory has to have some connection with our childhood which is very strong, otherwise we just wouldn't remember. I don't remember ever being that upset about my parents leaving me at school, although I have an older brother and sister so I was probably just more aware of the situation. The way you describe it is just so cinematic, with the fact that you could see them through the window. This seems like one of those memories when you feel like the past seems so far away.
I dont really remember my first day but apparently I reacted the same way and cried as my parents left. Oddly I also cried when my parents came to pick me up, because I liked it there so much.
I don't connect to this part of my younger personality, because my emotions are a lot more stable than they used to be.
